Talk about poop

Spent the morning vacciating my guinea pigs and then learning how to cook cows blood. There is a really great recipe for preventing anemia by tricking people into thinking that it is choclate. I kid you not choclate blood excellent combination. Then I got real sick again that day unrelated to the blood thing. I am not sure exactly what happened but lord knows that what comes out that fast has no intention of staying very long. So anywho I slept it off and am feeling quite better. Always fun calling my mom and having her diagnose me with random and obscure disease. Love you mom perhaps someday you will be right. Then today had to get back to work quite quickly. Spent the morning doing nutritional consults with a bunch of moms in the hopes of preventing malnutrion in at risk children and recovering the already malnourished. Had a training in the afternoon with my healthy households moms and the nurse about parasites. I do not know whether it should be to my happiness or dismay that the majority of my participants told me that their children are malnourished or have parasites. I guess this is what bringing awareness is all about. They seem to be learning the information I can only hope they are using it. I have heard some stories that they tell me they were going to do one thing but since I told them do try something new they tried it and it worked. I think I might be suceeding in changing their minds and then perhaps their health and they are empowred to decide and change their own lives. So I am really busy I am evaluating health promoters right now and training them on their weaknesses. I finally finished teaching sex ed which is a relief of my time and hopefully they understand what happens if they have sex. Because I saw another 17 year old scared, unprepared, and giving birth to a 2 lb infant which is truly heartbreaking on so many levels. I just wish they would understand the consequences of their actions. Also last week we had another parent school event. It was about domestic violence it involved about 35 teachers, 4 schools, and 350 parents. It is a pain in my ass project that I want nothing to do with but the expectation was set by the previous volunteer so I have to at least this year. Next year I am leaving it to swim or float. But no longer will it be my headache, though it is teaching me how to be more computer savvy. I made a sweet trifold pamphlet for the first time. Ha go to the third world to get better at computer skills when will my life stop being an oxymoron.
So what is up with everyone getting engaged or thinking about getting engaged. If I had any inkling that it was something I was looknig to do in the near future I would be having an anxiety attack. But congrats to all those happy couples. I think I will stick it solo until I figure out all my lifes plans and get to live out my dreams. Before I was thinking about the world food program but not I am thinking about this NGO named GAIN which works on preventing and treating malnutrition in India. Either way I do feel like I found my career. I know I could do so much in nutrition here, so much more than I could in the states. Nothing is certain in the future but I see myself in this line of work for probably the next 15 years if I do not burn myself in the next 2 years. There is just so much to do and see and teach and learn. By the way just caught a kid watching porn in the cabina next to me super awkard. giggles. Last friday there was a beauty pagent in the high school. As an event during the day they had two candidates box. Afterwards I got to box with one of the guys who organized it. He told me I hit hard and it was a ligit fight except for I lost. I will be training so that I can bring down male superacy. Then that night I judged the beauty pagent. It was all very interesting and unexpected. I celebrated my one yera in country the other day I got myself a facial, leg wax, and pedicure. It took me feeling very sorry for the girl cleaning my feet to realize just how far I had let myself go. It wsa the first pedicure I had in over a year in my defense. Ah well its not all beauty and glam. Loves

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

so first and formost i would like to say happy birthday to my life long inspiration and hero my grams. I would have never blossomed in the woman i am today without her support and advice and unconditional love. I would love to be there to celebrate but unfortunately you will have to drink a manhattan, smoke a cigarette, and eat a piece of chocolate cake dedicated to your life and granddaughter. As for me things are very busy with all the projects coming together. I work hard and am learning about myself everyday. I will be finishing sex ed in the high school and starting with a more intensive class if you will with the youth in my site. They have lots of questions about sex and no one to give them the answers. I have this idea if i can teach them they wont get pregnant so early or have as many children which might in fact change the future of this town all together. Here is a journal entry but I am going to leave some blanks for names so as not to cause problems. You all can infer which organizations and countries belong in the blanks. "I do not think the path of service is noble because we come from a different country full of amenities. I think it is much easier our path to change. People are more likely to listen to outsiders, host and treat kindly a foreigner from an "advanced" culture. Whereas the average country man would first have to distance himself enough from the situation to become self aware, develop a desire to change to improve the lives of others, determine a plan of action, resolve a means to do so and than fight relentlessly against ignorance and criticism. That is a grander feat. I am incredibly grateful that Ghandi lived and led and taught what one person could do. And he held strong to the truth perhaps it was only his truth but the most important way to live life is to know oneself and be true to that self. He saw through the impressions and found the impressive. Accumulation of worldly things did not matter as richness lies in the soul. That money oculd not achieve justice. That work must be done well and be intrinsically motivated. That quality of work is not success or failure but commitment undying commitment to the mission to the poeple involved and people affected. People looked at him as a godlike figure because they failed to recognize that they too were capable of the same greatness. I agree that one must leave a country and live in another in order to see clearly their native land. Not because you can compare one country to another but rather because you learn how to critique a country. When you are away you slowly grasp the reality of your other life. And then once you are there in the old country you expand on the hypothesis formed. You later have the ability o evaluate the severity of the problem, and look for resolution. His time in south africa helped him recognize that his real fight belonged to India. So i think about what would need to be done in the ___. We are already free or independent however actions should be taken to free the rest of the world from our terrible informal and occasionally indirect rule. One would be the food system. Which i have argued in the past would need to be destroyed to be repaired. All of the exploitation of land in other countries forces nutritional problems, deficiences, and civil war. When there is not enough food in the country one can be cerrtain that the ____ is somehow involved. Largely because the food mass produced in the ____ is given to animales to control the price on the world market. The price on world scale is generally more expensive than other countries can pay. Also other countries lack food security on account that they have been persueded to plant non food crops. When the crop failes or deflates everyone loses their chance to eat because there is no food to buy or sustain the country. The crop is inedible such as coffee sugar cane cotton and no one can buy food from the rich. When food causes war malnutrition cries as loud as the stomach pains of children with bloated stomachs. The intellectual and physical consequences of this malnutirion debilitates an already weakened country. These chldren will die sononer, live sickly, be weaker than the competition, dumber than their companionsand, more or less worthless. Economically speaking these people are a bureden on social services for a lifetime. Unable to fend for themselves they must suckle from the teat of the motherland. And the ____ just keeps on polluting, displacing migrant workers with machinery that further disrupts the natural balance and other chemicals used do not function properly and instead of removing pests we acutally eliminate ourselves using these dangerous unfounded, unstudied, unapproved chemical compounds in the hopes of increasing yield just so tha we can burn it all in the end. Now the food is being produced as a fuel, more crisis is certain to enrage and irrupt. The illusion is that there is excess production meanwhile many mouths remain hungry. How can such an outrageous proposterous idea seem like the best way of managing food. Food should be food and fuel should come from a waste product instead of an agricultural product. Thinking green is far from thinking ecological, it is truly greed and envy. The distribution of food to the needy should trump our need to drive more than one car around the block. The bigger plans are what others fail tosee. The ____ and the ____ continue to plot and pulverize third world countries as a means to destroy the competition. The idea of creating a way to be green is counter productive. Green is honestly simple it is small and monotonous it is a piece of land, some animals, wwalking , using the waste of humans and animals to grow more food. To enrich the siol that is currently spoiling. It is singular production for a single household. Mass scale production sacrifices quality, flavor, nutritional content of food. It births food products which degrade the organism. The preservaives we consume cause cancer, obesity, heart disease. All people must die but dying slowly and painfully just seems unjust for us to force other countries to suffer the prolonged prolog. Living poor does not seems so bad when they can plant. Without hunger, with education poverty does not appear to be a horrible existence. Accumluation is to buy thngs most people do not need. When needs can be met at a minimal price why do we insist to want more? Why cant everyone give share and get. No we will not grow substaincially but we could grow at the appropriate rate instead of accelerating the speed at which everyone consumes and contributing contamination that is wrecking the potencial of future. The ___ gives untested or unapproved chemicals to the third world. Substances proven to be too dangerous or unfit for human consumption. And then the production from these poeple goes in the the water and the food is contaminated to a people are poisoned and sometimes die. Meanwhile the ___ turns a blind eye. Its primary objective is earn more at all costs to gain profits and initiate debts. The ___ in the third world provide loans that will never possibily be gained from the food produced. They oversell to undercut to low blow and exaggerately or unnecessarily deprive the destitute. And who benefits from all these manipulatively ingenious schemes, a few rich men beautifully dresseed living in immense hones loving their luxiourous lives. They have more money than they can spend. It sits in investments in foreign bank accounts untouched but certainly accounted for. Whilst people, families, children suffer from hunger pains, diarrhea, curable diseases lead to deathly conclusions or temporary conditions turn into life long consequences. All could be treated or prevented. All projects require money. It is not a lack of voluntud or personnel they exist they try they fight they hope and wait for the pennies to flow from familiar faces or competitive grants. Why cant everyone get fuded to do good things for the greater cause. Why do the minority financially control the progress of minority groups? They should losen their grip on their money sacks or robin hood should return. Not for any personal benefit to but rather to realize campaigns, activities, and programs that could change lives. There will always be enough money unfortunately pride and prestige interrupt anyones ability to do the right things to have a conscience. So goals for teh development workers should actually be make being impoverish more marketable make being generous trendy. Make funding an NGO the way to go for all these rich folks looking for a sweet tax break and some great publicity. Get rid of these foundations that assist already safe or saved people and give it to memebers trying to provoke change and better the quality of life of a minority majority. Stop planning so much and start doing more. If funding was not such a pain tosecure more poeple would be out pushing the evoluton of mankind through the kindness of man. Synergy is the flow that could accomplish incredible and improbable feats. Funding and people willing to work relentlessly for little or no compensation. Taht is what the world needs. More exposure. Not the the slutty skin or sexual expose but rather exposure of full, raw, unmistakeable, nauseating exposure of the realities of harsh lives the poverty extreme, cyclic, sicklic and unchanging poverty. That contributes to further malnutrition, underemployment, lack of education, lack of appropraite upbringing, resentfulness, and suspiciousness. Survial tactics including prostitution, crime, sexdual abuse. alcoholism, drug selling, drug abuse, low self esteem, early pregnancy. This is virtually inescapalbe unless someone from the outside swoops in a teaches people to save themselve. Taht they are capable persons and breaks what could be an endless chanin of misery and unfulfilling existence. Life is about loving yourself and others, learning that the greater good is always more than any individual´s pleasure. It is a decision more poeple should make giving a hand instead of kicking and spitting on the already bloody messes of the world. When a country is poor the poepl cannot overcome the situation. It is commonly the result of policy change and decisions made from the top or outsiders. So when people keep trying to enter another country it is because life is so much easier in one of the high roller countries. The majority of immigrants believe that it is their only way to a new and improved life and it is because they are right. Within their own country they will never earn money or get a good education or live securely because of national debts, depletion of natural resources and exploitation. So perhaps before people criticize others they should see the equation from both sides. Get out of their comfort zone and see how cruel the world can be and how cruel most of us are. Not doing anything is just as bad as instigating a problem."